High Quality Tormented Soul ​​ @FirstProgenitor@sanguinem.space

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i have made myself a new kin onion
Jon art credit: https://spiralstain.tumblr.com
Gerry art credit: https://skyberia.tumblr.com/

patch 6.2 player card :)

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i am loud and i hyperfixate very strongly on things. do not initiate a friendship with me if youre just going to sever it when you find me mildly annoying

I will always be here and that is a threat

I hate memes about how queers like synthpop. I mean I'm a queer and I like synthpop but that doesn't mean it doesn't make me mad

Anyway back to our regularly scheduled boys kissing

I just look at this situation and I think about how difficult it is to truly explain feelings and give people an accurate idea of situations, and how much communication over the internet exacerbates this problem. There is very little neutral perception on the internet, it's very skewed towards "unequivocally good" or "unequivocally bad", when in truth that very rarely describes actual human experience

For example, when trying to describe my new therapist, I find that while I would probably rate him probably a 7 or 8/10 so far, I tend to focus on the negative. A lot of the positive about him is in the background. It needs to be there for the experience not to be truly terrible, but it's all subtle, not much to describe or talk about. And so why would I go at length to describe it? Plus, negative feelings tend to color our descriptions more than neutral to positive ones, because negative emotions are ones we are usually hung up on or feel the strongest about, and therefore have more to say on. This all culminates in me having a pretty good experience to someone, but then when I relay it, it comes across way more negative than I mean it to

Something that's become very evident to me the past several weeks has been how warped a perspective one tends to give when relaying events to others. They tend to bias towards extremely positive or extremely negative. Because often when you're explaining something that someone did, or otherwise an event, you're doing so for a reason, right. And people tend to relay stories as a kind of narrative. It's not bad, it's just how it goes. And when you're telling a narrative, you focus on the parts that strengthen the "point" or the "moral" of the story. This tends to lead to a very non-nuanced perception of the subject of the story

Ugh I really need to clean my keyboard

What the fuck on earth does "administrative sex?" Mean